Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Senior Burn Out

The hardest thing to do right now is to stay motivated through graduation. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, and instead of focusing on the task at hand, I find myself preparing for after graduation. I have a few jobs lined up and I won't have a problem finding employment after graduation. So why try? I understand that if I don't pass my classes, I won't be able to graduate. That isn't even a problem. I am just doing the bare minimum to get the grades I need to graduate. Senioritis is bad, but its even worse when you are a 5th year. I am so ready to be done with school and start my career. The mystery of the unknown is so exciting and I just want it to be May already! Once I get started though, I will definitely miss sleeping in through the week, only having a max of 4 classes a day, easy days where I only have 1 class, spending all afternoon playing Call of Duty or playing basketball. I will miss not having to worry about bills and all the "real life" problems I haven't had to worry about yet. I have it pretty good right now and I will definitely miss the college life. But at a certain point, it isn't as fun as it used to be. One day I will look back and really miss these times, but right now, I am so focused on getting done with school that I can't enjoy the college life like I used to. I enjoy having problems like, "where should we go tonight" or "I spent way too much money last night." I will definitely miss all of that, but the idea of making a name for myself, making my own money, and succeeding in the life has got me hyped up. I am ready for the pressure, I am ready for the risks. There isn't anything I can't do. Except concentrate on my last 8 weeks of school. I just can't get myself to focus on that right now.